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It felt like the world was ending, all the time. Wasn’t quarantine supposed to be my chance to workout at home and get in shape? Wasn’t quarantine the perfect opportunity to stop eating takeout and just cook at home? But did I do any of that? No. I gained about fifteen pounds throughout the last year, and I’m so terribly unhappy about it, as if I wasn’t tubby enough already. What’s important is that you’re alive and healthy!īut I can’t apply that same logic to myself.

Like if someone told me, “Oh, quarantine was really rough, I gained like twenty pounds.” Of course you did, that makes perfect sense, and that’s okay! 2020 was really hard and stressful, it’s okay if you gained a little bit. It’s weird, because any time someone has a reason for gaining weight, it makes perfect sense to me. It’s not okay I have thick thighs, it’s not okay I have a muffin top, it’s not okay I have a double chin. In my head, I am the exception to all of these. I ascribe to all of the classic body positivity sayings like, “How to get a bikini body: put a bikini on your body!” I agree with all the sentiments of “it’s okay to have rolls!” and “don’t be ashamed of your cellulite!” and “all bodies are good bodies!” I really do agree with all these things! Except when it comes to me. I am someone who always tries to be body positive. When I was younger, the only bodies shown were the thin ones, but now I see curvy, thick folks everywhere! Mainstream clothing companies are starting to accommodate towards people who don’t have Barbie-like bodies, and that’s great (not that Barbie-esque bodies are bad!). I have seen significant change in the past few years regarding how clothing companies advertise and portray different body types.

PROPORTIONAL FALLOFF BLENDER NOT DOING WHOLE DONUT PLUS

But that post (while it did mention me being a marshmallow and my issues regarding bouncing between regular sizes and plus sizes), focused more on the faults in the women’s fashion industry, whereas this one is more about how I feel about being someone who is fat. I know I’ve talked about the issues that come with being plus sized before, in my post about women’s fashion. Or when your friend wants you to spend the night and you say you don’t have any pajamas, and they insist you can just wear something of theirs, but you know you’d burst through the seams of their clothes, and you end up wearing something their boyfriend left behind because the only thing that’ll fit you is a six foot tall man’s clothes. Like when your friend that’s only 120 insists they’re so fat and you think how you’d kill to look like her. Though, sometimes it’s harder than others. It’s something you get used to, being the fat friend. I was just always one up from the rest of my friends. That trend continued for as long as I did powerlifting (I stopped after sophomore year). It’s just something that has always been painfully evident. The average weight of a 12 year old is about 100 pounds, but I didn’t need to know that to know I was tubby. While a lot of my friends were in the 100 or 110 weight class, I was in the 120 or 130 class, and it felt… not very good.

For competitions, they divide you up by weight class. I remember in seventh grade, I joined the powerlifting team.

I never really noticed it until junior high, because I didn’t have many friends until then, so when I started hanging out with more people in larger groups, I started to realize I was the biggest one. I go from being a regular sized kid, to the chubby kid. If you go through photos of me as a kid, you can pretty much see exactly where it happens. I am, and for most of my life have been, overweight. But I think I finally am able to express this in a way that’s kind of just matter-of-fact, rather than being a sad sack about it.

PROPORTIONAL FALLOFF BLENDER NOT DOING WHOLE DONUT HOW TO

I’ve been wanting to write this post for a while, but I wasn’t sure how to without making it sound like I’m fishing for compliments or throwing myself a pity party.

Proportional falloff blender not doing whole donut